I go in for radiation Friday, and I feel very scared for some reason. I know it isn't that of a deal, but I guess with the things that went wrong in January I am hesitant to do anything thus time. Honestly, I don't want to do it; I don't want to do anything else, but I have to. I have to get this over with. I keep telling myself that...I have to; hopefully I will be okay. I have to be okay. I have to be okay. If you could hear my voice right now, you would know how nervous I am. I know I'm going to be fine... but what if I’m not. I can’t go through not being able to walk again, I don’t know if I’m strong enough for that. I’m sure no one will read this before I have the Gamma Knife, but I’m still going to ask you to pray for me. Thanks! Love you guys!!